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Posted on 2007.12.30 at 02:59
Current Music: Dissection: Maha Kali
I woke up about an Hour and half ago, Wow Wee slept all day. Guess it was recover full rest day or whatever. I tend to not get that much sleep anymore usually 4-6 hours a day sometimes more and less, but its never consistent so yea had to regenerate I guess. Well any ways so I got out of bed and did the morning shit brush teeth take a piss yea yea the usual. I then head out to the garage where me and the Hilster kick it. she already engaged into having conversations online. I then grab a smoke and my meds. After doing so I grab my Ipod and put on Dissection for some good music waking up to while the meds kick in. So while listening to " God Of Forbidden Light" Track 8 on Reinkaos the last studio album of the great band and Jon's masterwork. I had this entire theory and vision I guess you could call it. Jon decided to end his life by his on choice on August 16th 2007 or so they say. Heres the story which was released on internet:

"As rumors have started to spread we feel obliged to confirm Jon Nödtveidt's death. Jon Nödtveidt was a man who lived his life according to his convictions and True Will. A couple of days ago he chose to end his life by his own hands. As a true Satanist he led his life in the way he wanted and ended it when he felt that he had fulfilled his self-created destiny. Not everyone will have understanding or acceptance for his personal path in this life and beyond, but all must respect his choice.

Those of us who have met him in his last days can assure that he was more focussed, happier and stronger than ever. It is our full conviction that he left this world of lies with a scornful laughter, knowing that he had fulfilled everything that he had set up for himself to accomplish. The empty space that he leaves behind will be filled with the dark essence that he manifested through his life and black-magical work. His legacy and Luciferian Fire will live on through those few who truly knew him and appreciated his work for what it really was and still is. As our brother's goal in life and death never was to "Rest in Peace", we will instead wish him victories in all battles to come, until the Acosmic Destiny has been fulfilled."

This day was a very devastating day to me. No I didn't ever meet Jon or see Dissection live but his music has effected me greatly and also has help me in many ways. So I was thinking and looking at some stuff and Jon somethings seem to be off to me. maybe my brain is playing tricks or looking for something more that isn't there having such a strong connection to his music and wanting it not to be true. But Ok Jon took his on life following the ways of us satanic religion but does anyone see him in anyway wanting or looking to end his life through the photos and the actions he took with his music. It's quite amazing that a band of black metal underground could still reign on top after not releasing any music for so many years and really only having 2 other studio albums. Jon has always lived his life down the path he wanted as we have be shown through the lifeline of events that have been posted. Founding Dissection in 1989 and growing in skill and fan base through every year. taking the life of a person for the fact he wanted to. whats the first thing Jon did when he was released in 2004 he reformed Dissection and kept on going with the release of "Reinkaos" which was an amazing album. I still can't put it down after I got it the day it came out. The album is a masterpiece and will always be in my top albums of all time. So Jon reforms Dissection releases an album and begins to get shows set up with a strong and more fan base then the past. The band seems to be doing better then ever without the approval of being able to play shows in the USA. Well not too far after his denial into the USA he commits suicide a very sad day. So look at these keys points: Dissection strong then ever, Killing someone effects non of the fans, touring, and satanist. Now we know this world is corrupted and controlled by twisted people with a greed for power. Now Jon was very open with his satanist views and stating chaos all the time. Now would the government or anyone else want a satanist killer traveling the world with such strong views and influencing todays youth and other as well. We all know that answer. So given that some part of me thinks he may not have actually killed himself after all. Now this is a just theory of sort so open your eyes. the world is controlled by fuck tards so remember nothing is safe and ours at anytime someone could take it away. In my last words I would say open your eyes and see things from outside the box.



I fear the Monsters that don't know who they are..
bloodburden at 2007-12-30 15:22 (UTC) (Link)
I to am someone that when I listen to a musician that I really like I end up caring muchly if the band breaks up or if something happens to one of the band members so I understand what your talking about.

Your theory to Jon's death could be right or it could not be the important thing is that you actually care I'm sure that there are people who don't give a damn. Try to gain something positive out of this negative thing that happened perhaps your theory is the positive thing you can gain from it. What's also important is that he left a legacy with his band Dissection.
trioxin_b at 2008-01-01 09:08 (UTC) (Link)
Yea me too. I put much emotion and feeling into things that I really feel a connection to art. Such as music and so on. Dissection and Jon really hit me in a weird way from extreme metal band. I have always loved Dissection since the first time when I was 13 and found " storm of the light's bane" album. The lyrics and music was unlike the rest of the scene of metal acts from the north. Jon really seem to put his ideals and feelings into the music more then the other bands. Not to bash the other ones saying that what they are writing or showing is meaningless. You look at a Band such as Dimmu Borgir and the music and everything is perfect but its more of an artistic way of music. They are an extremely talented band. With Jon he seem to put his all into what was Dissection. So yea perhaps my theory is just a idealistic way of giving his death more then simply a suicide to his own beliefs. Either way Jon's work has been great work that will continue to hit me.
I fear the Monsters that don't know who they are..
bloodburden at 2008-01-04 23:11 (UTC) (Link)
It's good that your favorite musicians have inspired you to become a better musician (in the sense that you perfect your own music in a certain way.) I've only heard about the band Dissection from you & from reading magazines so I've never really heard their music. I always find it amazing when I find bands that really dedicate their life & give their all to their music even though I might like other bands that don't give their all but still their music is good I really don't respect their music much because those are artists that just make music for money & to get chicks or whatever.

I firmly believe that metal musicians are the greatest artists of our time because not just any musician can play or sing like a metal musician. I don't listen to Dimmu Borgir - sometimes I just stay stagnant listening to the bands I already listen to. I hope this note finds you & the Hilderbee well.
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